Ok so - This F.aceboo.k epidemic ... Be my Friend, Add a friend, Search for friends ..yadda yadda ...
I spend unnecessary time wasting thoughts and stressing over who to ask to be my friend and who not to ask. I have read a few post about this topic. If someone asks to be my friend, I Always Friend them. I like to be friended, (did I make this word up) Who doesn't?
Going back to the situation, Of course, the core me is still the same person I have always been. That has not changed, but I am like a Topiary tree. I am always being reshaped and pruned by life's journeys. Which does make me have different views on life than I had when I was, let's say 16.
I have always had a hard time keeping friends. This problem goes waaaaaaay back. Some I know why they decided to no longer be my friends or why we stopped hanging out. Others I have no idea what happened. Lost touch, Lost interest .... Then sometimes, A friendship has a time and place and that season was over.
My husband went out of town this weekend, Left me at home with probably the fussiest MT we have ever had. Yes teething. Honestly, I am tired of hearing myself say the word teething. I am tired of all things that are teething. It seems we are having it out with this topic. It's not like you can tell an almost 8 month old to grow a pair, put on big boy boxers and suck it up. This is the way it work's MT, Sorry If you don't like it.. Deal ..... These were my exact thoughts at 4:30 am Sunday morning. Until I rubbed my eyes and saw/heard/realized how much pain he is in and that his crying was not part of my dream.
Oh wait back to the point ..... With Hubby out of town, I had idle time on the laptop. I played around and learned some functions of fa.cebo.ok. I found old friends and wanted to friend them, but then wonder rolls in. wonder why we stopped talking, Maybe I shouldn't Friend them, If they wanted to be my friend, they would have asked, Or maybe they are like me, waiting to be asked ..... UGH really .. See I had too much alone time this weekend. But seriously, At the age I am at, should I REALLY have these thoughts? Do they ever go away?
This application allows me to do some serious damage to my already low self esteem some times. When I first got on there a few months ago I friended a few people. I recently went to their profile and realized they patronized me for a day or two, then deleted me off their friend list. I laugh, only because It makes me too nervous to think otherwise.
I have written all that to ask, Do you have fa.cebook? Do you think about who you friend/not friend? Do you ask people to be your friend? Does it dredge up self esteem issues that you thought you worked through and was in the past? Does it spark your curiosity to snoop?