Thursday, May 15, 2008

Rambles Of a Hormonal Crazy Woman

AH - I made it one more week w/o using leave. Hopefully I can pull that off for 1 more pay period. (may 29th)

We had our OB Tour yesterday. I must say that this hospital is just fantastic and so thoughtful. I know they birth babies hourly and all - but they just have it down so exactly as I would like it to be. The policies are in place but make sense and there is nothing too out of the ordinary. Every hospital staff we encountered was just super friendly. I think that we will really be pleased with this hospital. They play a lullaby over the entire hospital speakers when a baby is born.

I received Photobucket from Morrisa, Adriane, Wishing, Hoping and Praying, and Katie (*edit) this week.

I cannot express to you gals how much I needed this little extra this week.

I would like to pass it on to LIW, and Lady in Waiting, Kristen, Marcy and Kris, and TopCat. All have been a great deal of support to me and are deserving woman.

I have been feeling very drained emotionally and physically. There are some things going on right now and I was not sure if i was going to be able to make it another day a few days ago. I have been having lil mini episodes of doubt and fear. It all stems from lack of sleep, I think. We changed from lo.veno.x to (because hep is easier to control while laboring - as someone else also pointed out) And of course there had to be a snafu. At the pharmacy (or the ob's script - each are blaming the other) I received the wrong vials of the drug. I picked them up Monday night after work, came home to find out that there was not a script for the needles we needed to inject it with. E called the pharmacy to try and arrange the pharmacist to let us have(buy) 2 needles to get us that night's dosage and the am dosage. Then I could call the OB's office and ask them to order/write a script for the remainder. So i did, they called in an order, I picked them up Tuesday night after work. Got home, found out that based on the syringe units I would now be required to inject 2 needles at a time to fulfill the ob's amount prescribed. I was a little frustrated. NO, i was alot frustrated. Lov.enox was in a pre-filled syringe, no mixing required and i only had to take it once a day. This new drug was requiring 2 shots a day - but with the small syringes it meant 4 shots a day. So I had to give myself 2 shots in the pm and 2 shots in the am and then call my ob's office again Wednesday to figure out what was going on. I still do not have any clear answers as to what happened - each are blaming the other for the script - but will not take back the drugs and syringes and give us the right ones - therefore I stuck (literally) 4 times a day compared to once a a day until I run out of those vials. I have 30 of them and each vial will last about 5 days. Therefore I will be sticking myself most likely until Mini arrives 4 times a day. I was bruise free before switching, My belly ( where I have been instructed to stick myself) is no longer bruise free and quite sore actually. I just keep thinking - I am so ...close..I will make it. I called to get more test strips for my sugar monitor but the pharmacy will not let me re-new that prescription because the dr put that I test 2 times a day - but i was told to test 4 - so I have to call again today and ask if they want me to just test 2 times a day or continue to test 4 times. If they want me to continue doing 4 times a day the script needs updating or a new one needs called in .... It's just tiring dealing with all of this .. That stress on top of the mental stress I put on myself about my leave and dealing with other stress's that I can't really share yet just makes me all tapped out. Good thing is after tomorrow, I plan on leaving work early to pick up my sister at the airport, going to get a pedicure and manicure and relaxing before the shower on Saturday.

With all the above frustrations, i am still glad to be able to hold my head up and say that I am almost 34 weeks pregnant and still feel unbeleivablly blessed to have made it this far and be able to actually be in a position to have a baby shower FOR ME ... This is will be for me and I did not have to plan it. After last yrs baby shower bananza's (i threw 4 last yr), It is so humbling to be able to think that I actually have something referred to as a "shower dress" and enjoy celebrating my ( well and e's baby).

I leave you with a 33 week pic:


Baby Deux! said...

EEEEEEEEEEEEEK! I cannot believe your shower is the weekend and that you are 34 weeks!!! YEA! I hope you gets lots of good stuff!

Sorry to hear about all of the pharmacy confusion and all of the extra shots. Just think how worth it they will have been when you have cute little Mini in your arms!

I have been freaking out lately and I know it is because of a lack of sleep so please know that you are not alone.


Mel said...

I am so sorry to hear about all the pharmacy drama! Buttheads!
4 shots a day is inexcusable. I am thinking of you and sending prayers your way.
I seriously cannot believe you are already 34 weeks and about to have your baby shower. How exciting and wonderful!!!

Cece said...

Yeah for showers! OF course we want pictures. And the extra shots SUCK. I hope there is some way to get it figured out.

Katie said...

I nominated you for that, too! : )

Just wanted you to know how loved you are and how much you make my day, Farah!

Happy Shower Weekend! I can't wait for the details - take lots of pictures!

Jen said...

Yuck, stupid medicine. At least it is for a good reason. Matt's medicine gets mixed up fairly often at the pharmacy too. The last one was when I picked up two prescriptions, got home, and there was only one of them in the bag.

Kathy V said...

Did you get that black dress with the cute pink ribbon. You will look great in that dress. And look at your belly. It looks like Mini is doing wonderful. Your belly makes you look like a wonderful pregnant lady. Awesome.

That is really a shame that either the pharmacy or the doctor screwed something up and nobody will help you out. 4 shots is just ridiculous. atleast you are doing well.

Take some time for yourself this weekend and have a great time at the shower.

A New Beginning said...

You look so WONDERFUL! GO ahead and take some time for yourself, you definitely deserve it. Have a great time at your shower this weekend. Hopefully the dr's office will get everything straightened out very soon.

Chas said...

Ugg...dealing with mixups at the pharmacy are the pits! That's terrible that you're taking so many more shots than you would have had to have otherwise...good grief.

You're almost there though! It's getting close!!!

hope548 said...

I'm sorry about all the stress. It sounds extremely frustrating! I hope things get all straightened out soon. I can't believe they won't fix it for you. That's just shitty!

I hope you enjoy your relaxation with your sister and have lots of fun at your shower, which you fully deserve!

Take some deep breaths and take care!

Adriane said...

What a mess with all the injections. God, I'd be so pissed! You really are almost there - you're right, but that doesn't mean you can't be mad! :-)

Yay for your shower! I hope you have a great time!!!!! Can't wait to see pics!

Kristen said...

Thank you so much for the nomination! That means so much to me - you have no idea. YOU, my dear, have just made my day!

I'm so sorry to hear about the mixup at the pharmacy. That is so frustrating. And I'm sorry that you now have battle scars from the new shots. I hope it all gets worked out and the next few weeks fly by so you won't have to deal with it much longer!

I love the new belly pic and can't wait to hear all about your shower. This is so exciting! XOXO

Cibele said...

34 weeks??? OMG, youa re almsot there!!! how exciting!

Cibele said...

34 weeks??? OMG, youa re almsot there!!! how exciting!

Dreamer4agift said...

I am so unbelievably happy for you getting this far and staying so strong. I can only imagine the frustration with all those shots to take just b/c ppl don't want to "man up" and take care of their mistakes!

I remember when you were planning all those showers last year, and I have to say, I hope whoever does yours does at least half the good job you did. Have fun at your day, and I can't wait to hear how it went and all the cool stuff you get!:)

Marcy "meg" said...

Thank you so much for the shout out! You are too sweet.

I am so proud of you for all the shots and everything... that has to be hard. I took the progesterone shots the first 12 weeks and I know how much that frustrated me at times... so I really respect you for staying so sane!!!

You have fun at that shower on Saturday and enjoy every minute of it! I think it is cute we have ours the same day :)

Barb said...

Oooooh lots and lots of hugs for you. I can appreciate how nerve wracking this must be.

Nurse Lochia said...

That sucks to have to deal with 4 shots because of a pharmacy/doc screw up. The last thing a pregnant mamma needs is more stress. But, before you know it, you'll be holding a bouncing baby boy! And I can so relate to not sleeping well.

Anonymous said...

Looky how ADORABLE you are!!!


So happy that it's going OK for you, sweet friend. I can't wait to see pics of your new little family!

sara said...

Good for you for still holding your head up high and for having a shower. Oh my goodness...a shower, yay! Boo for the crappy pharmacy happenings, but yay for your sister's visit and pretty nails! I hope you have the best weekend ever, I'll be thinking of you.

Hilary (The Trying Game) said...

Farrah you are doing so great and you're almost there! I am so very proud of you :)

Kathy said...

Congrats on another well deserved award!

I am so sorry you have to give yourself 4 shots a day in addition to having GD. (((HUGS))) Hang in there, I promise this will all be a faint memory in a few weeks when you are holding Mini in your arms.

Congrats on 33, almost 34 weeks now!!! So exciting that your shower is this weekend! I look forward to hearing about it and as others said seeing pictures of you all cute and preggo in that dress! Did you ever find a blue ribbon to replace the pink one with? I thought that was a cute idea, but I am sure either will be nice.

I am so proud of and happy for you!


Dr. Grumbles said...

Great belly! Have a great shower!

Kami said...

Thanks for delurking. Thought I would do the same. I still keep up . . .but you are a prolific poster! :)

I trust everything will continue to go well. As for the agenda lady . . .you might want to try the book Birthing from Within. It is a bit new-ageish and still has a slight bent toward drug free, but it's main goal is to help women birth with awareness whether that is "natural" or with medication or having a cesarean birth.

Searching said...

wow. I can't believe all this time has gone by so quickly! You deserve all those nice things and a shower for your baby. Hope all the pharmacy mess gets untangled (in the middle of one myself and am about to scream!). You are in my thoughts during this stressful time.

wanttobeamom said...

Farah, Thanks for all your comments on my blog! You win the prize for being the first person to pick up on my use of a pronoun! Yes, we're having a boy! =) We have decided not to tell anyone in RL the sex of the baby though. Anyway, I hope you have a great time at YOUR baby shower!!

Anonymous said...

Hey Farah,

It's Amanda, Brooklyn's mama, from myspace. I didn't know you had another blog, and I saw you mentioned on Baby Molly's mama's blog today. And I thought, hey, I know her! Weird coincidence, huh??? :)

I hope you have a great baby shower!!! They are so exciting!


Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

HOW EXCITING! Have a great time at your shower! You deserve it, girlie! HUGS!

lub said...

Look at that baby belly! You are too cute. I hope your shower today is fantatstic! I will think about you being spoiled beyond belief and finally hopefully letting it all sink in that this is REAL!!! I understand the anxiety. You do need to take care of yourself though. Take some time off if you need it! Thinking of you!

Katie said...

Happy Shower day! And thanks for the edit! :)

Polka Dot said...

33 weeks already?!? Gah ... it seems like just a few weeks ago you got the bfp! Yegads hah

Have fun at the shower and I hope you get lots of good stuff!!

Anns said...

Yay - congrats to us on 34 weeks!! Sorry to hear you're having such a trying time though... not to fear, it will all be worth it in the end.

Enjoy your shower and I hope you get lots of love and attention and prezzies!!!!


lady in waiting said...

How was your shower? I want the update. I guess you are 34 weeks now, yay and congrats!!!
About the heparin/lovenox - are they going to make you stop at some point? I take a baby aspirin every day and I know they make you stop a few weeks prior to delivery so your blood can start clotting again. Just curious! (and sorry for the drama :(