Sunday, February 10, 2008

I went to a get together at my parent's house last night. Everyone was fascinated that I had not found out the sex yet and that we have not thought of names yet. During dinner, it quickly became "name the unborn baby" game. I have to say, I was not a bit intimidated. This is a plus for me. Usually, i just like to blend in and not have much conversation about this baby, how far along I am, blah blah etc. I am beginining to enjoy this. (weird I know) I was reading Katie's post about women who undergo treatments have this "AH-HA" moment of their pregnancy. I feel mine creeping in. I feel the Ah-Ha moment building. Here is a great website that I found this morning about generating random names. I played with this for about 1 hour this morning. That website is pretty cool. I felt excited to be able to think about picking names. I also think that my husband and I both agree that we will see what the name will be after we deliver. I do have the "I need to see what the baby looks like" before I designate a name.

With that said, I am worried about visiting the MFM dr's. My co-worker who did not have a difficulty getting pregnant had to go to their office and they scared the crap out of her - she cried for hours and will still tear up when talking about it. I know they have to do their job and theor job is to give all the risks and such. But as much as I want to see the organs and get their opinion - I am unsure I am ready for the doom and gloom that my friend has described the office to be. I am hoping and praying that they will not do that for me -but she says that since I have had heart surgery and have a few fused vertebrates she is sure that my appointment will upset me - I am hoping the later!! I do not need any more reason to set off my anxiety that I finally have somewhat under control. So as much as I am looking forward to the appointment, I also think that is one of the main reasons, i am been just "going with the flow" and not pushing for an appointment.

I have a friend that is blogging after she received a bfp after a round of IVF. Her website is here. She has been recently diagnosised with a subchrionic hemorrhage in her 12th (or 13th) week. She was told that there is still a risk of miscarriage. If anyone has any info about this please offer her some support - or just offer her support because.

I want to congratulate Flotsam on the birth of her twins. This is bittersweet - go wish her some love and support if you haven't already.

I need to write a post about the friend that got away. I am one of those people that have a few really. I dunno why, but I have this scenario happen to me often. So I have quite a few stories that I can share. My husband tells me it's because I share my opinion (when or not asked) and I share the honest opinion and most peope do not really want the honest one - they want the opinion that is the popular things to say and because I am quite an independantly hippy like soul. More on this later. .... I hope everyone had a relaxing, enjoyable weekend. I have to run to my parents. I left my purse last night.

13 comments:

Jendeis said...

I'm so glad that everything seems to be going well right now. As for the MFM and your friend's fears, the visit may affect you differently since you are so used to the world of IF and medical interventions. I would imagine it would be much more of a shock if it took nothing to get pregnant and you never had any bad thing happen until the MFM visit. Just a thought. :)

sara said...

Many of my fears with my UU were relieved at my appointment with my peri (from MFM) for the preconceptual visit. Maybe you'll actually find the appointment helpful and have a lot of questions answered to make you feel better I hope. Thanks again for the sweet email...you always make me feel better! Oh yeah..it's cool you always speak your mind, even though it's sometimes hard for others to hear. I would find that refreshing!

Katie said...

I am glad that all is going well for you.

Regarding the "friend that got away post," I found it very cathartic, although it was a long entry and kind of got me fired up again!

waitinginline said...

That rocks that you had fun at the get together...and you're enjoying the name game!!! Woo hoo!!! I really hope this is your "AH-HA" and you fall into more joy and less fear. I'm hoping and praying it for you!

As far as the friend that got away...I think it just happens some time. I don't see how your honesty would ever push me away. <3

Melissa said...

Oh, picking a name has to be so much fun. I am so excited for you.
Remember that everything about you, your baby and all of us is in God's hands and you can't change anything anyways. He is watching over that little baby so closely, you have nothing to worry over.
*hugs*

Kathy said...

Yay for your "Ah-ha" moment! You certainly deserve to enjoy your pregnancy and all the fun attention it brings you, but I totally get still feeling catious at times. I hope that your MFM experience is a positive one. I have been very impressed with the doctors, nurses and staff we have dealth with at our MFM's office. Congrats on being halfway through your pregnancy! :)

gracechild said...

ah forgetfulness - one of the side effects of pregnancy :)

Elizabeth said...

That's so interesting that you want to wait to meet the baby before settling on a name - we just decided to do the same thing!

Mr. & Mrs. M@sk said...

Wow, that baby name genie is a bit rude if you don't go with his first suggestion, lol. Thanks for the link :)

Marcy "meg" said...

I like honesty!

Searching said...

Yay, baby name fun! I could give you some wacked out names NOT to name your child...

I'll be praying for the MFM appt. It might be wonderful, give you answers AND reassurance. I very desperately want many MFM appts if I ever get pg. I feel they would best know how to handle it and get me and the baby through till the end if there is any chance at all of it.

LIW (Lady In Waiting) said...

I hope that the doctor doesn't leave you in tears. We have cried enough, we IFers. Fingers crossed that you get lots of good news!!

And I am excited that your Aha moment is quickly approaching!!

XOXO

Baby Deux! said...

Hey are you having a level 2 u/s? If so, when??? Maybe you posted on it already, sorry if you did!!!