A Few Changes Around Here

Spell Check is working !! Hurray

I did it, I am sure you have noticed: I updated the name of this blog to reflect my current situation, not to mislead passer- byers. I also added a new shirt to my avatar to reflect my current body image.

p-word and preparing for baby talk – skip to the purple if you do not want to hear about it

This weekend I really found a new level of my comfort zone. I have been able to look at nursery bedding, make a decision and order it. It’s actually very therapeutic and rewarding after all of these years. (I have bought several outfits and find that boy clothes are completely adorable and have fallen in love with plaid and hats …) Mini’s movements are frequent and comforting and refreshing.

I had some reservations about finding out the sex – even after I found out – I told E it kind of felt like deflating a balloon – but after this weekend, I know that is not true at all. It is different knowing the sex. It was a baby before and still is a baby, but now it is My Son, Mini … It has a different feel to it. I don’t know if that makes me sound ridiculous or not – but it's how I feel about it all. In the back of my mind, there is a part of me that wishes I was strong enough to hold on out on knowing – but the fun that I have had this weekend is overshadowing that lil part of my mind.

I ordered this bedding this weekend. Of Course, I picked out bedding that is only an online purchase; you cannot see it or find it in any of their stores. So, we decided that we would order the 4 piece set to see if we still liked it in person. It should be here in 2 weeks(ish). If we like it, we will proceed in picking out a crib. I went on a stroller hunt this weekend as well. I have picked out an expensive set, so I was trying to find one that was not so expensive – but that’s not happening. Every one I find that I think I like, Has a problem for me: the pattern looks cheap, or the stroller is too heavy, or I’m too picky .. I like the original one I picked out …. Yes I am even high maintenance picking out baby item….

Many have asked about names – we have a few names we like but only one we can agree on thus far. I have found this naming process to be VERY important to me. I do not want to just pick a name that I like; I want my husband to help also. It just seems like such a huge task. This is a name that will shape him and stereotype him and a name that he will be forever called. I need to make sure we review all our options and resources. We tried family names – My mother’s side of the family didn’t do well with names – (think major hillbilly), my dad’s family is just as worse there are just more boys on my dad’s side. E family doesn’t have many good options either … So family names are for the most part out. I like uncommon but not far out there names. I enjoyed growing up with a slightly uncommon name and my husband has a more common name and says that he was always his last name or a number so he also is leaning towards fairly uncommon. Although – His #1 rule – the name spelling can not be creative. So our naming style seems to be classic and traditional... any suggestions?

On a very random and wacky scale: My Step MIL emailed us this weekend. The woman that has nothing nice to say to me and told E that she and his father were writing him out of the family if E married me(E is his dad’s only child and the SMil Doesn’t have any) – a person that NEVER HAS MET ME but thinks I am the worst person on the planet – a women that tore E’s and his fathers relationship to pieces for the past 6 yrs. (I am not innocent in this situation because I lack the ability to keep my mouth shut and told her a few places she could visit that aren't exactly pleasant or suitable places to go) Yes her – she emailed me this weekend. We went to E’s grandmother’s funeral like 3 yrs ago in Wis and flew on a 2 day notice and was not invited to their house at all. Nor did she speak to me or try to get to know me. We flew up a different time to attend a family wedding a yr later – which she still never spoke or acknowledged my existence. I say all of this because all of a sudden – she sent me the nicest email in the world. She is happy for us and knows a baby has needs and wants to purchase an item for us signed Gramma. I asked E what he wanted me to do – his advice wasn’t good – so I emailed her and told her that I started a registry at the babies are them store and that it was a work in progress. That we appreciate their excitement and are glad they are interested in sharing this experience with us. So … there you have it, More family drama. I hope I did the right thing. If they want to buy a gift that is great – If not – that is great also. I would love to be able to leave all the crap behind!