Tuesday, February 5, 2008

No touchie the Mango

This post is going to be all over the place:

Happy 1st blogoversary to me – I forgot to post this but Feb. 3rd (superbowl Sunday) was my 1st Blogoversary. I have met so many wonderfully bloggers/commenter’s and I don’t know where I would be emotionally if it wasn’t for this community. I have been allowed to explore my deepest fears, thoughts and ideas here for the past year and it has made a huge difference in my friendships, work and my marriage. You guys really do Rock! This past month, I have been faced with decisions that I thought I would never get to make or have to make – and this bloggin process has helped so much. I am going to link you to a few posts that have been made over the last couple days that have really had an impact on my heart and soul recently.

A SomeDay Mom – I totally could have written this but instead of plagiarizing, I will link you to her – but her thoughts are exactly mine – just better written

Blood Signs – this post is just powerful and brave. I am in awe of her writing ability. She really is a fantastic woman. The part that left me thinking is at the very end of her post about the book “The Prophet”. Before that quote, as I was reading, I kept trying to imagine myself in her situation. Would I have been strong and graceful enough to handle that situation the way she did? Pam, I am really inspired by that post – Not many could have done such a beautiful balance as you did!

Mel’s post yesterday about the community in which we write from and about – Really I just wish I could express my thoughts and feelings the way some of you are capable of doing.

P-word mentioned:
Not only did I have my 1 yr blogoversary – but I am 19 weeks. (45% of the way there) I am still feeling movements. They are still somewhat sporadic but still feeling them none the less. Saturday morning, I woke up feeling like I had done 1000000 sit-ups. Anyone ever feel this way while pregnant? I assumed it was because of Mini- kicks and Mini-growing. (Mini- my love, I am plenty big and there is plenty of room in there already- you already want more space and more room?) I am still holding at the same 5-6 lbs that I was up at my last appointment. I am changing shapes, furniture is moving and you can see the protruding roundness of my belly for sure now. Here is a pic what 19 weeks of lo.ven.ox injections look like: Photobucket

Say Cheese – This week my baby is getting that yucky stuff you see some newborns born with. A protective substance called vernix caseosa (vernix is the Latin word for varnish; caseosa is cheese) Mini is also approx. Six inches long and about eight ounces in weight. Mini is the size of a large mango. (reminds me of a SNL skit – no touchie the Mango) Which is the way I feel about strangers rubbing/touching my belly!

DREAMS: My dreams are back and in full swing – here are the less creepy/more recent ones

I had my very first dream about My baby, This baby on Friday night/Saturday Morning. This dream was much much different than any other dream I have had in the past. Somehow I knew it was a dream about this current baby on the way. I got to see a face of the baby and was told the sex. All other dreams (until this dream) have been very vague in the past. I never usually see a face it always hazy or blurred and they are always gender neutral and wrapped in green or yellow swaddling. My baby was very distinct and clearly wrapped in a pink/flowered blanket that I bought to give to my MIL almost 4 yrs ago (that is currently lying on the guest bed) and never ended up giving it to her. In the dream, My mom went to the hospital to "pick up" my baby and bring it back to me because I wanted to be “surprised”, while I stayed at home and waited! WEIRD, yes ya think?!??!, She the pink wrapped baby to me and told me she was a girl and that we needed to give her a name. (Think I have lost it yet? – there is one more)
The second dream, Sunday Night/Monday Morning – This dream was about feeding what looked like the same exact baby girl from the first dream, a bottle. They (not really sure who “they” were) were trying to feed her bad formula that had set out for over 2 hours because they didn't want to waste it.(at my parents house but with different furniture). I was not there, they were babysitting and I walked in and found them talking about how “she” needed a bottle and to just grab the last one on the counter because she didn’t finish it. I was all frustrated trying to figure out why they made an 8 oz bottle for a 2 month old.


Speaking of things I never thought I would get/have to do – make a list of whom I wanted to attend MY baby shower. I did that this week. WHOA was that ever interesting. I realized that it was quite a different list than I would have thought about pre- pregnancy. Being a shower thrower of many years- I thought I would want the whole wide world there – Now that I was asked to compile a list – It is about1/4 of the list. I have decided that I feel more secure and comfortable with just a few friends/family that are aware of my situation. I advised my sister to tell my parents that if they wanted to have a heavier guest list after the baby was born for “Mini has Arrived” Party. I am all gun-ho for that, but would like to keep the shower guest list down as much as humanly possible. We’ll see how that goes.

19 comments:

alison said...

Happy blogoversary!!

Katie said...

Happy One Year! I am glad to have known you through the blogasphere!

Hey, I have a question for you. . .

How long are you on Lovenox for?

Did you have a specific reason for the Lovenox, or what it a "just in case"?

Okay, that's two, sorry! Hope you don't mind my asking, but I am on Lovenox and my RE wants to take me off of it at 12 weeks. I am really scared to go off of it, but I was only really put on it for "just in case."

Fertilize Me said...

When doing my RPL i have auto-immune deficiancies Mthfr (i have 2strands of it) related to a blood clotting disorder. Until the peri (which i haven't seen yet) says other wise - I will be on it until 30 weeks. I also was taking prednisone and a baby aspirin. I was weened of the prednisone at 13-15 weeks. Hope that helps answer some of your question- i do not mind questions at all- ask away

Chris said...

Happy blogoversary! You've come a long way baby!

Barb said...

Happy Blogoversary!

Oooh all those injections. ugh. :( But I'm happy they've kept mini safe! I hate when people touch pg womens' bellies without asking. argh!! Strangers are REALLY bad. I even asked my sister!

JJ said...

Yay! Happy Blogoversary! We are close blog-birth buddies=) So glad you have been here this past year!

SaraS-P said...

Wow! You started blogging on my 6th wedding anniversary! Cool coincidence. Have you really only been blogging one year? You certainly have become an awesome blogger and blogging buddy during that time.

I can't count the number of times I've gone to comment on someone's blog and noticed you were the first commenter. You are awesome!

I say you include the sharps container photo in your baby album. So sentimental! :)

Happy Blogoversary!

Marcy "meg" said...

Happy Blogoversary!

I thought my box of PIO shots was big!!!!

Wordgirl said...

Happy Happy Blogoversary!

You're one of the first blogs I ever came across -- and I was so inspired by your open spirit and your incredible heart and support -- it is I who should be thanking you!

Pam

~Carrie said...

Happy blogoversary!

I bet you'll be happy when you can stop jabbing yourself with needles!

Glad to see that everything is still going smoothly with Mini. I can totally understand your feelings on the baby shower. (I haven't been in that situation, but I think I would feel the same way) A 'Mini has Arrived' party sounds great!

Chas said...

Happy Blogoversary!

waitinginline said...

Happy blogoversary!!!

I am so glad that you started blogging. You were my door to this wonderful land of support. Without you and the blogosphere I can only imagine what hospital I would now be locked in. ;-)

Ummm...ouch! I hope you're able to give up the injections very soon! (and I agree with saras-p...add that to the baby book...hahahaha!)

No touchie the Mango...I'm giggling over here. I loved the Mango skits!

I'm still curious about what a dream interpretation would say about your recent dreams. I hope they're prophetic in the fact that Mini is a girl. :-)

Now I'm running away from the computer before Mr. W turns evil again! And in case I haven't told you today: YOU ROCK!!!

waitinginline said...

HAPPY 19 WEEKS!!!

My_Herstory said...

Happy blogoversary! I am so glad to visit your site everyday, it lifts my spirits to see the baby floating around your counter! Makes me smile every time!
Thanx for posting everyday on everyones blogs, and for sharig your daily thoughts and ramblings with us. It's a pleasure to know you! YOU ROCK!

Searching said...

Happy blogoversary!!

That's a lot of lovenox!! (Your poor mango-filled belly!)

Crazy dreams, but kinda good ones too. :)

tracey said...

wow to the "box o' biohazards" - that is amazing.
praying for you and your mini me - glad all is well so far.

Matthew M. F. Miller said...

Happy blogoversary!! Here's hoping that this is the year your blog changes from the topic of infertility to pregnancy. The sooner you can tell those injections to kiss your ass, figuratively instead of literally as it is now, the better.

sharah said...

I'm late, but happy blogaversary!

gracechild said...

that picture deserves a place in a scrapbook