Ok So, I am alil upset at wi.kipe.dia for leading me astray on the Br.oth.er's and Si.st.er's Show. NOW according to my googling skills, It will be on this sunday night at 10 pm. So I dunno what is going on with that show and the scheduling with the network. (just thought i'd clarify since i also lead a few others astray)
About this post: 5 weeks (and some change) has passed since this post. I am not mentally all that different. I am finding myself starting to research: bottles and strollers. (yes only those 2 things) I have started to have those "air bubble" feelings and a few people (that have permission) have place their hand on my belly and felt where the baby was sitting/laying and felt it move away. Which eases my mind immencely. even if they are lying to me. Some days i feel much more confident than when seeing hte 2 lines, other days i feel just as freaked out as when seeing those 2 lines knowing that not all 2 lines=THB (take home baby) Just like having no control over your cycles, you control to have no control this either. I never really grapsed that during cycles, So I am having a hard time putting that into practice now.
I have alot of support and alot of prayers and I thank everyone that is contributing to this. ( I am talking about YOU, yes YOU!) You are keeping me off zoloft (for now). I am getting excited about my appointment on Friday. If you haven't noticed yet, I did add the guess what I'm having poll. I still am very neutral. I do not have a clue what it is. I have always loved guessing what others are having, but with me, It just doesn't seem like I know what to guess or have any intuition/insite. By having y'all guess, It is helping with my dr's appointment anxiety that I get about 8 days before each appointment. (Like I stated in a previous post). I am trying to conquer my (irrational) fears - so Let's have some fun, Guess away.