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First off - anyone got any real descriptions of round ligament pain? I am having this pretty dull/achy/throbby/pully feeling to the lower right of my belly button (maybe groin area) . It isn't constant, it comes and goes and in no real pattern. I assume round ligament pains?(i am not all that worried about it - it is not intense - just thought I'd ask the experts
Secondly- I wanted to clarify that I had a mental breakthrough. It was like all of a sudden, I just felt very confident in my Dr's, Tests, situation, condition, ..etc. I just sort of had this epiphany (if you will) that I am going to have this baby regardless of all the bad thoughts,odd, and statistics. I know bad things happen - but like fertility testings and treatments, I can not do a thing about them - except Accept them and progress. And this weekend was that acceptance in order to progress. I didn't drink a magical drink or have a revelation. I just woke up on Saturday with this overwhelming joy and confidence. (this could bite me in the butt later on but for now..I am going to enjoy it)
I was so confident that I actually registered my husband and I on a baby registry at a store that is all about babies are them. There is not much on this registry at all . But this was/is a big big big step for me. We still have not bought anything baby related and probably won't. But it felt good to take that leap. It got me excited for once. I will not lie, after 5 minutes I got this overwhelmingly panic-y feeling. Even discussing this with E after about 5-10 minutes, I found myself all paranoid, like i was going to jinx something. AND THAT IS WHAT I WANT TO STOP!!!! I want to stop myself from feeling like a jinx. I do not believe in jinx's for myself.
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I wanted to note that I am commenting less, but still reading. The holiday Lull at my work seems to be over and I seem to be very busy most of the days. But I am still thinking/praying for all of you. You can always email me! I appreciate all of the support you guys give me.