10 weeks= 70 Days

"Today is Tuesday December 4th 2007.
You conceived on Tuesday October 9th 2007
and your due date is Tuesday July 1st 2008.

56 days have passed since the conception,
and you are 210 days before your due date.

You are 10 weeks into your pregnancy,
and you have 30 weeks to go.

You are in the 1st trimester.

21% of your pregnancy has passed, there is 79% left to go."


WOW

I made it to 10 weeks today. 10 WEEKS .............OMahGOSH!! I have graduated from growing an embryo to growing a fetus. Check out this website.

My morning/all day sickness has slowed down and this past few days. I just woke up yesterday and today just feeling queasy. That is an improvement that is well accepted. I have noticed that when I lay down, my belly does not flatten out, like it used to, you can feel a hard spot about 2 inches above my belly button. My breastes’s are HUGE and still growing. I noticed in the bathroom mirror before a shower yesterday that there are bright blue veins running all through my chest/abdomen region… That’s new. They also tingle now. That’s a lot of whoa what is THAT feeling. They are heavier and tingling … very strange. Brushing my teeth is a new experience, other than the toothpaste making me gag; my gums are very inflamed and bleedy. I bought a new toothbrush with soft bristles, I am hoping this helps. Last week, I noticed my mood shifting negatively. Everything on the planet irritated me. I had a long talk with myself and hopefully that will not happen again. I am trying to drink more water. I drink about 6-7 bottles of water now (and a few small other drinks), but I have to tell you, Water makes me want to vomit. I can not drink water first thing in the morning STILL. I don’t know what it is about Water, but it really turns me off in the AM’s. I am feeling a bit of weird twingy/pressure on my left side mostly. I am told its ligament pain and it’s quite normal.

I make small goals for myself. Right now, goal is to make it til Dec14th. That is when we do the nuchal fold test and I get another U/S. I will be almost 12 weeks then.
I have grown quite found of Mini Vann and really beg him/her to stick around and be very healthy. I find myself talking to the fetus and referring to s/he as a baby more (in my head mostly). I explain that we really feel blessed and just want to do the best for him/her and that we really just want to make it another 7 months and we will do whatever it takes to do our best.

I am kind of shocked that so many people know. I find myself at a loss when people that do not really know what it took for me to achieve this pregnancy thus far want to “talk” about the pregnancy. I find that I am not really comfortable with that at all. I thought I would be. I am glad that people know. I ask for prayers if they know. That is the benefit (in my head) of so many people knowing... more prayers for Us. (Selfish maybe). Part of me wishes that I could have held out on telling some times. Pros/Cons, water under the bridge, but I am truly honored to still be 10 weeks pregnant and enjoying every second of it. I know that being pregnant is not an instant mind eraser, but I thought that it would help start erasing some of the bitterness, treatment discussions, failed cycles, past attempts, miscarriages, feeling of emptiness and etc. Yet I find myself some days having new crosses to bear. It makes me very uncomfortable for people to mention that I am pregnant, or ask how I am feeling, or comments in general. And at work, I just can’t handle the talk about do I want a boy or girl. I have become speechless a few times.
I find myself changing the topics …. Boy are girl, whatever I do not care. Funny how most people do not believe me when I say I really do not care. I really do not. I finally came up with an “I just want a very healthy, happy, live baby in X amount of weeks”. You should see their faces. Yes it would be easier to say. We are hoping for but after yrs of this, to me, that is trivial. That is the kind of stuff I am shocked at myself for not just being able to roll with. I mean, is there any harm “playing along with their anticipations and excitement” over the sex… NO, but some reason, I just can’t. I do not like to discuss names, nursery sets/colors, furniture and hearing talk of me having to register and what stores I am going to pick. I can’t think that far at all mostly… I need to learn to fake it better I guess, and just go with “off the cuff” rambles. I am hoping this all gets easier to openly discuss because I opened a can of worms. I wanted to share my secret, now sometimes; I want it back to protect it ….