Wednesday, May 27, 2009

When it rains, It pours

Just being honest - Very honest!

These past few weeks have been less than stellar. Problem is - My attitude or hormone levels, lack of sleep or just a combination of life. I have been angry and frustrated constantly for 3 ish weeks now. I am not sure anymore If I am choosing to be angry or if it's too many raging hormones. But really I have been uncharacteristically not myself. And I am not liking this AT ALL. I get frustrated with myself for being angry/frustrated. And I now how blessed I am and how ungrateful I look/sound/feel. So the cycle starts all over again. BUT I think last night after a humongo venting, yelling, blaming session directed indirectly at my husband at 11:30pm, I think I am over "it". What ever "it" is.

In all fairness and disclosure, It's been raining (like raining monsoon style) for 17 days straight. Some where in the beginning of the 17 days our roof started leaking through our light fixture, chimney and ceiling in the living room. I notified all the correct people, the roofing contractor came out and delivered bad news that nothing could be fixed until it stopped raining and the walls/inside attic area had a chance to dry out. After a few days, I finally convinced some jerkface that he needed to tarp it off in order to keep some of the rain out of my living room while we were waiting for the rain to stop and everything to dry. (so I didn't have to keep dumping buckets and watching my curtains soak up the excess water) I have had to run one of those commercial blowers, an ionizer and a humidifier for weeks now. I had to break down and take some sudefed because all the dust that the blower was blowing around was making it hard to breathe and sleep. We are still in a holding position waiting for the rain to cease.

Despite my sour attitude we had a FANTASTIC Memorial Day Weekend. I even brought my camera along. We had 2 days in the sun on an nearby island and no rain. It was! MT was so good and had a blast.
Today, I am starting a new p/t job. I am hoping that this p/t job will work out and I am able to quit my other job very soon. The other job was the straw that caused the venting, yelling session last night that my husband suffered from. It is very physically draining and just not the right fit. My co-workers either don't show up to work when scheduled or if they do show up, they are late and High and seem to figure out a way to leave early which leaves me working the hardest and longest. Which is where my husband had me realize was where alot of the sour attitude is coming from.
MT has decided to get the rest of his molars this weekend. Monday, I noticed huge welts/bumps on his gum line. Hopefully they will be making an appearance soon (and not disappearing again like they have done a few times) and he gets some relief. Spots where his canines are are also bulging. He could be getting those too.
I had my NT scan yesterday. All measurements looked great. I am measuring 12 weeks. Armadillo's heart rate was in the 160's. The tech tried very hard to get a look at the goods. But the baby was not cooperative at all. She said her guess would be maybe another boy. But she was not sure. I guess we will have to wait a few more weeks. They forgot to do the finger prick so I have to go back sometime this week to do that. In between all the craziness.


Delenn said...

Ouch! It sounds like you have had a shitty time lately, and probably had a right to feel a bit frustrated and angry. But, things are looking up!

I hope your new job works out well!

Love the pictures--I can't wait to go to the beach with Willow!

I tagged you BTW for a meme on my blog..

Katie said...

Aw, honey, I am sorry it's been so tough. I can't imagine. I hope the new job works out and you can quit the old one ASAP.

And how cute is that boy???

Dreamer4agift said...


I'm so sorry you've had a bad time lately. With what all that has been going on, it's no wonder you're having some anger...and no, the hormones def. don't help curb those feelings at all. But don't beat yourself up over feeling what you feel. I hope things start getting better very soon.

And I LOVE the pics, such a cute boy:-) Of course, you already knew that!

Amanda said...

I'm so sorry you're in such a funk. I can't imagine how rough it is to take care of an almost-toddler, be pregnant, take care of a leaking home, and work. Bitching is definitely in order! You don't sound ungrateful at all; you sound normal and honest to me.

I really hope the new job works out well!!! I also really hope those teeth break on through so you can all get over the misery of teething soon.


AJ's mommy said...

I am sorry about the hormones and stuff lately. I can only hope it will get better.

As far as your trip... that boy of yours is just too cute.

And yes, please come and join in our pool and hottub. We would love to have you guys! :)

So why did the tech think another boy? Just guessing or did she see something that made her think that?

Elizabeth said...

Yay for a good scan!
I love the photo of MT sleeping on the blanket... sooooooo cutE!

Adriane said...

Ugh, what a mess with the rain. I would not be a happy camper at all. Don't be too hard on yourself, pregnancy hormones are NUTS! MT looks SO adorable in all of his beach pics. :-)

Jen said...

I know we all try to rationalize why we feel crappy some times. It very well could be a whole lotta factors with you, pg, 1 yr old, bad weather, new job, etc.... but allow yourself to feel however you want. Sometimes we feel bad for being angry, mad, or whatever, but we are allowed to feel bad sometimes. Then when it's better, it's better.

Heather said...

Holy Cow - that totally sucks!! I hope the rain clears up and they get everything fixed. You poor thing. The last thing you needed was to be emptying buckets and drying the floors/curtains.

Love the photos - he is just too damn adorable!

Polka Dot said...

yegads! You sure have had hard days lately!

I hope the new job fits well and you can leave the crappy one. You have enough pressure without having to work long, crappy hours.

quick question - any pointers you have on cloth diapers you want to share? lol If you don't mind, shoot me an email at I'm thinking bumgenius but don't know anyone that uses that brand.

FattyPants said...

Blame it all on the humidity. It always makes me a bit cranky.

I hope this job works out for you. Is this a long term position or just until the new one comes along.

And it can't be a boy! I already predicted girl and I'm sticking to it.

Anonymous said...

Don't be so hard on yourself over the bad mood.

The beach pictures are adorable!

Mel said...

Irony? You had no water at all previously and then more than you want. I know, I'm terrible for pointing it out, but it was the first thing I thought when I read about all that water in your place.

Life sucks sometimes. That's just the way it is. Even when you have all kinds of awesome things like a wonderful husband, adorable baby and another one on the way you are still allowed to have rough patches. Don't sweat venting about it, you get to do that! ;-)

I hope the new job works out better and that the sun shines again (pun intended). That boy is just gorgeous on the beach... glad to hear his little sibling is doing well.

Jen said...

You pick a day and Elizabeth and I will head out your way bearing homemade chicken soup. Or we'll meet you for lunch someplace. :) We won't leave until you are cheered up!

Hopeful Terri said...

Aww -- I know how you feel about being frustrated at yourself about little things.

Glad to hear your little one is doing good.

I hope the new job works out for you.

Take it easy!!!

JJ said...

Look at that sweet beach baby boy!

Hoping the mood shifts soon...and that your new job is a better situation for you=)

butterflyanla said...

Sorry you are having such a shitty time. I can't imagine what it's like to be you right now. You are going through a lot of change. I hope things improve soon. If you need to talk feel free to call or email me.

Kristen said...

I'm sorry you've had a hard time lately. No wonder you are frustrated! I hope the shitstorm is over soon.

MT is just the most handsome little boy! I loved your Memorial Day pics. Thanks so much for sharing!

And great news about Armadillo. Can't wait to see what flavor you have in there :)

Amy B said...

The pics of MT are fabulous! Hang in there, it has to get better.

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling like yourself lately. Hoping and praying that it passes soon!

Good luck with the new job and YAY for the NT scan! :) ((HUGS))

Jill, Mommy of Tanner and Josie, our Clomid baby. :o) said...

Well poo-poo to the rain and leaking. :o(

I hope the new J.O.B. is going well!

And MT is as gorgeous as EVAH!

Hey, my word verification is "thinar." Think it is trying to tell me something??? SNORTY SNORT!

Photogrl said...

I'd be crazy, mean, unhappy, and hormonal if it rained for 17 days straight as well!


Yay for a GREAT Memorial Day weekend, and a new job. I hope it's a better fit for you.