Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Jumble

I was asked:

Where oh where did you get that hat and mittens set? Gy.mbo.ree, I am an addict. I cannot stay out of that store. They have the best boy selection for the price, In my opinion. There is ALWAYS a sale going on.

Is there anything you miss from before MT - even if you feel guilty about it? I actually had to think hard about this question. Pre-MT, I woke up about 30 mins before I needed to leave for work. Mornings were very low key and uneventful. So, I think the thing I miss the most is sleeping in and having low key mornings. I am adjusting well. But It would be great not to have to get up early 7 days a week, 365 days a yr. and start the day running as soon as my feet hit the ground.

I also miss hanging out with friends on the weekend. We used to hang out and eat every friday evening at a sports bar. But since everyone has children now, It has stopped.

What has been the biggest/best surprise about being a mother?
I actually do have patience. I wasn't sure I would be able to deal with little sleep, high demands, constant need of some kind of attention or task. The reward of a simple smile, coo or laugh really does make me forget about the daily struggles. It is far greater than I imagined. I can stay home for hours/days on end and not get cabin fever. I enjoy the simplicity of it all.

What kind of video's does he like? We watch The Baby Einstein videos. We have watched Miss Spider, Blue's Clues, and Backyardians. )shows on noggin) Yesterday E said WordWorld kept his attention on PBS. He will pay attention to these for about 3 mins. If there is music, singing and little kids involved, he will watch much longer (5-7mins). I usually have some sort of music or tv going while he plays on the floor with his toys. He has gotten to where he will rock side to side or bounce when he hears music come on now. E and I have always sang made up songs to him. He response very well to singsongy melodies.

I know it is way to early but, have you thought about birthday party ideas yet? Actually yes we have, So far, I am planning to have it at a park and I have already put a deposit down for shelter reservation. Since his birthday is around graduation and the start of summer, I figured I better get a jump on it. As for themes and whatnot, I have given them a lil thought. I like this cake and this cake. And of course, these cupcakes.

Do you dare push your luck and try for another one? Or do you be happy with the miracle you do have? The answer to this question is so complicated. I don't even know how to answer for myself. We aren't preventing a pregnancy. Which raises some suspicion and flags, mentally. So, I guess the answer Right now is, If it happens, It happens. If it doesn't, it doesn't. I am not sure what I am willing to do as far as treatments are concerned again. I am not even sure how I feel about being pregnant again. I have been reading about those who are ready to try again (gave birth around the time I did) and I am not sure If I am jealous. Jealous that they are ready to try again, Jealous that they have hope to dive in head first and battle up for another child. Jealous of their perseverance. Or just I am so used to jealous emotions when it comes to pregnancy announcements, I need to be reprogrammed a bit. Take a step back and allow some more time/healing

There are so many levels to the "Do you want another child" question that I never really thought about. and right now, I am not ready to even approach the discussion. But on a hypocritical level, I am having a dilema. One of the problems I am having is trying to get my brain out of thinking in cycles. I am tracking my periods mentally. Counting days, constantly wondering if my body is doing the things that it didn't do before such as ovulate and become regular? Are my hormones balanced? What Cycle Day is today .... I have thought like this for sooo long (6+ yrs), I am not sure how to even stop. Anyone else going/gone through this? Does it ever stop? Will my thoughts let up eventually?

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I went on a job interview this morning. It took me 4 minutes to get there. FOUR MINUTES! I was unsure what the job interview was about before I got there. I had off today and I figured I should go check it out and see what it was about. It is M-F 8-5, It will pay more than my current job (not by much) but It is 4 mins from my house, and 4 minutes to a daycare I could use. I would be basically 3 city blocks from my house and daycare. That is a HUGE plus. I am unsure if I will even be offered the position. It's a small company with 5 employees. I am not sure I want to work 5 days a week. I do have to work a little bit, the money is nice. I would not be wasting 2 hours a day in traffic. I feel kind of Meh about it. I have some posts I have been brewing in my head for weeks now but I need to run to the grocery store and then go get MT at my parents house. It's like 40 degrees here today .. MAN am I Freezing.! But I am enjoying the change in weather

15 comments:

Dreamer4agift said...

I said a prayer for you this morning on the way home from work. I hope the job thing works out for you--one way or the other.

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

I am so with you about TTC again. I just don't know how far I'm willing to go. It would be great if it just happened but things are never that easy. And I too think in cycles. I don't know that that will ever stop--but I hope it does!!! :) ((HUGS))

Adriane said...

Those cakes and cupcakes are adorable!! Oh, and I absolutely L-O-V-E Gymb.oree!!! Good luck with the job situation. 4 minutes from home is tough to beat!!

Leanne aka Browneyedgirl said...

Good luck on your interview!!

Jen said...

I have stayed out of Gymboree on purpose because I fear I would spend all our money.

I used to live four minutes from our office and it was wonderful. I highly recommend the convenience. (Going home for lunch, being able to run home for repairmen, no traffic problems.)

hope548 said...

The thoughts about my cycle haven't completely stopped, but at least haven't been as obsessive as they once were. I still track my cycles too and notice when fertile CM shows up. Obviously after more than 6 years with no BC, I don't expect anything to happen, it's just a way of thinking that sticks with me. You can't really go back to ignorance when you've been paying close attention to your body for so long!

Jen said...

First, you are not allowed to say that 40 degrees is freezing! :) 40 degrees is almost summer here! Second, I will pray for you and your job situation, I hope it works out so that you end up with the best solution. Third, I love your monkey cakes, I'm glad I'm not the only crazy one thinking that far in advance for bday ideas. And Last, if you like gymboree, go to crazy8.com. They are a related company with some good deals too. And if you are enrolled in gymboreeclasses.com you get coupons to gymboree, janie and jack and crazy 8. And as far as the cycle counting, it has taken me 10 years and feeling comfortable with my family size to stop counting. Even before the 2nd and 3rd ivf cycles, I was counting days, feelings, and continued to have a closet full of pee sticks just in case. I'm glad to say my closet is empty these days. It doesn't stop until you take measures to not get pg.

sara said...

It is so funny what you said about having a patience. Brynn has taught me that too. I hope your interview goes great and it made me smile to have you talk about freezing weather. We're planning a trip to Florida soon and I can't wait!

Geohde said...

We are not preventing a pregnancy wither, but I don't expect one to happen. Sigh....the thought of more IVF isn't much fun, either.

J

Amanda said...

The whole do-you-want-another is such a tough question to answer. Even in my situation I'm having a hard time with an answer. We don't want another child, but it feels ridiculous trying to prevent.

butterflyanla said...

Maybe you and your friends could start a new tradition? maybe do a more family friendly activity?

LIW (Lady In Waiting) said...

MT is so gorgeous - I can't believe how much he has grown!!!!

I know how you feel about the issue of having another child. I am already thinking about it and my feelings change by the minute. It doesn't help that giving birth to Colin was such a terrifying experience. I keep hoping that I will eventually just suddenly get pregnant so that the issue is out of my hands. Of course, my non-insane-IF self knows that that simply will not happen.....

XOXO

AJ's mommy said...

The 4 minutes sounds great!

Great questions and answers... don't forget mine :)

Barb said...

Well spoken about the second baby sweetie. I'm glad you're enjoying this one though. :)

GL with the job decision.

Kathy V said...

My sister said her little girl loved Veggie Tale movies. they have the silly songs and all the characters are veggies. Plus they have good messages.