Monthly Dr Appointment

oK - WARNING p-word appointment and random thoughts all over the place -
(yes barb- sad but true-for the most part, I write like I speak/think- scared now?)

Welp, I made it back from the dr's appointment. I just do not understand pre-natal care really. I guess this is coming from an infertile stand-point. I go there, they do things that I really could do at home. Maybe this is based on my fertility treatments. (I mean, we did do our own injections)

Normal appointment: I weigh myself (didn't gain any), I pee in a cup. (i had a few white blood cells today but I told them I was fighting a cold- they were not worried) They take my BP (still really good), measure my fundal height (measuring 24 weeks - I am 23w2d). Nurse asks a few questions, then does the doppler(still 150-160's). Then the Dr comes in ( because I am still considered High Risk). If you aren't HR I don't think you see a Dr. That's it. Very low key

Today, She went over the MFM notes with us. She was pleased to hear how well everything was and has turned out. She disagreed with his thinking on the lov.enox. She found it interesting that he does not think I need the lov.enox and the dose is much too low for someone with that condition in my weight range. She told me that she will mention this to her team of dr's and see what they think of his opinion and notes. I told her, It's just a shot, If she wants me to do more, I will. She admitted that sometimes dr's give prescriptions for things to make the dr's feel better as in "prescribing the risks, so the dr's get sleep at night". I told her I was fine with whatever they decide. They also want me to have monthly growth scans(u/s's). I didn't ask specifically why. I am sure it is based on the MF.M Dr's request which he already told me he wanted to have done either at his office or theirs. She agrees, whomever's office is fine. They just want to have a weight estimate of the baby. (due to my pre-despositions to pre-eclampsia according to the M.FM)

It's good to have dr's that really want to care for you . I know that I may have complained in the beginning, I had a rough start and a weird perspective, I find it easier to relax and trust when I fill my Mini moving and kicking me while we are discussing this pregnancy.

Boy have I come a long way in that thinking. Me- trying to figure out why I am at a dr's appointment?? Am I that comfortable .. Maybe? The receptionist was scheduling my next appointment - and I asked for a later one. I asked for an appointment a week later (making my next appointment in 5 weeks inside of 4) She said "my, you sure have gotten much more confident haven't you?" I just smiled. I really have. I am relaxed about most of this, most of the time. It's quite new for me and somewhat enjoyable. I enjoy this chilled out version of me. I am glad for the pre-natal care. It just seems like after all my RE appointments, it's really simple. And for that statement - I am going to hush and not say that out loud but be eternally grateful beyond measure. In all fairness, It will not really be 5 weeks w/o an appointment. I have another MFM appointment the 24th.

I don't know if i mentioned this or not but my next door neighbor growing up has had 5 rough pregnancies in the last 3 years. She would go into pre-term labor around 20-26 weeks and end up losing the babies. She delivered a beautiful baby girl yesterday at 32w1d. She was on hospital bed rest since 20 weeks, had cerclage since 11 weeks. The baby was 4 lbs 4 oz and 17 inches (they were giving my friend terbutaline and prednisone since 26 weeks to help prepare the baby's lungs.) The baby spent less than 13 hours in the n.ico on a breathing machine to help open up her lungs but is already off and doing fabulous!! SUCH freakin Fantastic News!!