Birth Day?

I went to the Dr’s office for my first NST/OB appointment today. The NST was really fun. I did have to drink one of their apple juice boxes. They were not thrilled with my sleepy head baby. He is not a morning person. He doesn’t like to move unless he has to (around 11am is a good time for him – always has been this way) I eat breakfast around 8 every morning, Mini move some to let me know he is in there and snug but doesn’t have a dance party or anything like that until 11 am, and then again around 7pm at night. Ok tangent ....... I sat hooked up to the machine for about 1 hour (not bad – and I LOVE to hear the heartbeat) and I was sitting in a recliner with my feet up – just perfection!

Then I gave a urine sample, weighed myself, did the group b strep swabbing and blood pressure – still a great 110/68! At least something about my body is making me very very very happy. My bp is steady an my weight is the same it was 2 weeks ago, my sugars are going down by every week. My fasting is at 80-86 now. (yes higher than average but lower by 20 points when we started testing) Although the Dr. measured me and exclaimed that I am “HUGE”. It was like she was telling a story about the fish that got away..OMG HE WAS HUUUUUUUUUUGE (hand measurements/gestures and all)… I am sure it was my imagination – but it just makes me so worried to hear those words so much in reference to my boy! She said that it could be my body type (she mentioned short waisted – I assume I am, I never really thought about it before) I just really really really want the best chance to have a vaginal birth and with throwing words like HUGE around sends me in a bit of a panic mode. The dr I had today, I know from others, is not a fan of c-sections so when she sat me down to discuss this as an option if the report from the peri on Monday (when I have my next/last growth scan) shows an abnormally huge, or Non head down Mini, vertex (sp?). I kept telling her that from the u/s’s I have had, he is head down, and he weighed ~6 lbs 3 weeks ago. She could not find it in his notes….. I will ask him Monday to specifically write it out.

If you could spare some good thoughts, prayers, whatever you do to calm nervous and guide you - I could use some. I am really anxious about the big baby theory and c-section. I want the best possible chance and would love to be able to experience a vaginal birth. With all that said, we have an induction date. I go in June 23rd at 4pm, and with hopes and prayers, will have a baby June 24th. 18 days away (I will be 39 weeks). (They would like to do this based on my hep.arin use. It’s easier to contro/monitorl. I said this baby started out being controlled – he can be birthed controlled/monitored). We are very excited and nervous and I am pretty anxious filled with mixed feelings. I just need to keep breathing and concentrating on the good aspect that my body has done for me over this pregnancy . No bleeding, bp good, no weight gain, hearing heartbeats, no visible heart defect yet, great spine, ovulation when RE said I didn’t (let's not forget that), this baby has already beat odds and is very loved .. I hope Mini continues to wow us into the future.