Yesterday my dad had MT and I had Army for the morning. Army and I went to P.anera for breakfast and next door is a TJma.x. We were really just out of the house just to be out. I was perusing the racks and came across the perfect pair of shorts for our Easter Ensemble (this is close to shorts what I bought to be worn w/ pink polos). I have this need to match my children as much as possible.* Of course, they did not have 2 pair. So I spent the majority of the morning tracking down another pair. I am so excited about their outfits, I hope they all work out. The other pair was found out of state so they are mailing them to us.
Another reason I am so excited about Easter is that E is off work ON Easter. He will not be brown bagging it this yr. He will be able to celebrate w/ us for the first time in 7 yrs. . Hooray!
So with the thought of ,all of us, as a family, being together for Easter, I decided, we all needed coordinating outfits for a Kodak moment. Yes I am totally a southern girl at heart...
So last night, I was checking out the department store websites and found a few cute dresses that I liked ..then I some how got looking at bathing suits .. and found options I liked at the same store ..
This morning, after breakfast, I was either feeling overly confident or extremely delusional from sleep deprivation (we will eventually get around to discussing this) and decided to pack up the kids and go to the mall.
As soon as we pulled into a parking spot, MT (who has been potty trained for a few months but has Sporadic hours/days of accidents after accidents) announced that he has to go pee pee NOW. Army was asleep in his carseat. After I verified he just had to pee. I requested him to pee in between the car doors (i can't believe I typed that or even did it-file that under things you do in a pinch, while learning to potty) Then I unloaded the stroller and wasted some time to let Army get a decent quick nap. A few moments later, we were off. I found 3 dresses I liked. So we went in the dressing room to try them on .. I was armed with toys, books and snacks. In the midst of trying on the 2nd dress, I hear, "I have to go pee pee more" .... as I am pulling the dress over my head ..I hurriedly scurried to get My clothes on, books picked up, Kids in the stroller, I knew the bathroom was only next door, 30 yrds away - Off we went racing time and a 2 yr old bladder. I begged of him to not pee pee in his big boy pants .... Knowing this was most likely going to end poorly. And it did. And my nerves fried and my confidence level took another hit, My tag team nemesis, Anxiety and Defeated, plowed over me on their horses
These are the situations that hold the most anxiety for me. No escape routes .. Stuck between a rock and a hard place. Outnumbered is the name of the game. These scenarios make for loads of anxiety AND creativity. It is what happens when there is 2 toddlers and 1 mommy. Practice makes better practice, That is what I have to keep reminding myself so that I do not run and recluse back into my shell. These situations are what give me PTSD about leaving my house some days.
Then someday, all things just work out in our favor and I feel like I have the bull by the horns. Those days boost my confidence, I like those days A lot.
*reason 1- it is super cute, reason 2- you do not have to keep track of 2 outfits if one gets lost, and if 2 kids are in same outfit most assume they belong together, therefore I have to use less brain power and that is ALWAYS a good thing