Friday, April 24, 2009

Riddle Me This -Part 2

The answer is two under two.

Short Answer:
It seems that I have found the cause of my exhaustion and other non pleasant symptoms. Yes, I am pregnant. Bit of a shock is an understatement. Mr dr's office is trying to get me scheduled for an U/S on Monday as my HCG levels come back over 20k. Progesterone came back at 12.4. They are guessing I am anywhere between 7-9 weeks pregnant.

I am having a huge dose of survivor's guilt and have been having a hard time being ready to blog about it. So I had to break into the news slowly.

Long Explanation:
I took an HPT back in March and it was my last one I had. I figured, I would take it and like pretty much most of my life, My period would start the next day or w/in an hour. It was what I considered negative. Looking back, I thought I waited too long to check the results and got evap lines. I moved on, complaining and waiting for my period. Went to my GP and explained everything to her and she ran labs. Thyroid, Anemia, Glucose, Cholesterol, Etc. She said that it sounded like I was having cysts and that I needed to see my Gyn and get an u/s to check on my ovaries. So After I received the labs back from her, I called to make an gyn appointment. Made for April 27th. I was talked into taking one more test on Friday night. And it was positive. Really positive. So, On Monday I called the Gyn to inform them of the new developments and they rushed me in and sent me to the lab. I did have to wait until Yesterday to get the results back - but all things seem to be ok so far. I was called in a script for Lo.ven.ox and did my first shot, in a long time, last night.

As mush as I am excited/overwhelmed for our family, I am terrified/horrified knowing that this news is going to anger/hurt some and I hurt/ache knowing that. I am just trying to keep it real ... Because I am Real. And I understand

69 comments:

NOLA0614 said...

Delurking,
CONGRATULATIONS! I am so excited for you and your family. I couldnt be happier for yall!
Thank you for sharing your wonderful news with us!

-erin

Wordgirl said...

OMG Farah!!!!!

I've been hiding out but that means you and I are due about the same time...that's tremendous news -- but I'm sure its overwhelming too...

Xo -- love and warm thoughts to you!


Pam

Dugi said...

Sqeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!
Farah!!! this is SO AWESOME!!!!!
Think POSITIVE! Be HAPPY!!!
I have the biggest smile on my face right now. *happy dance*
I'm going to eat a whole bar of chocolate to celebrate.
:)))))

Shelby said...

Holy crap! Great news Farah!! I'm so excited for you! This is amazing!

Nicky said...

Wow, what amazing news! Congratulations!

Happy Mommmy said...

I knew it when I saw the green number 2. Congratulations.

Dreamer4agift said...

I literally squealed with delight reading this! I know you are still in shock and all of that, but I'm SO happy for you. How exciting! How does E feel?! Oh geez, I'm so excited. xoxoxoxoxo

White Picket Fences said...

Congratulatons!! I'm so flipping excited for you I can't even tell you. I've been having fantasy conversations with my OB about what I'm going to use for contraception ..and keep imagining myself saying "Pcos, anovulation, infertility ..." ...but now you give me pause! How very reassuring!

alison said...

Yay for you! I couldn't be more filled with glee today! :) Congrats momma. (It will all be ok, it always is.) xo

Meghan said...

CONGRATS!!!!!!!

Wow---how exciting (and nervewracking I'm sure)

Good luck with your u/s on Monday. I'll be thinking of you

Hilary said...

Wow congrats!! How exciting :)

Mommy Shoes said...

I am very excited for you!

mo*reezy said...

see, I told you people would be excited for you! I know I am!

Lisa said...

OMG - that was my guess (I swear it was but I didn't have time to post a comment being at work and all...)
Congratulations to you! It is wonderful news.

FattyPants said...

OMG I knew it! Congatulations.

Amanda said...

I am so excited for you I can barely contain it!!!! This is absolutely wonderful!!!!!

Nic said...

Congratulations. very exciting!

Jen said...

This is great news, so very happy for you!!! :)

Adriane said...

OMG!! I gasped out loud!!! I cannot believe it! Congrats, Farah! Fantastic news. And, equally fantastic - you know what's been causing those health issues. So happy for you!

beebles said...

unlike others i had no clue what the big 2 meant...congratulations farah...i am so happy for you...that is so amazing...with you and cece i am starting to get paranoid about my decision to go off bcp again....

Jen said...

Yippee! Congratualtions!

(And no more 'splody head!)

Morrisa said...

Wow!!!! Amazing!! Congrats!

Geohde said...

COngrats Farah.

Because I am honest I will say that you are the sixth ALI colleague in recent weeks to be pregnant again and I feel horridly left in the sidelines, no personal chance in sight.

But that is selfish of me.

Very happy for you and your family,

xx

g

Mountain Girl said...

I say Congrats to you! Little MT will be so excited to have a younger sibling!

Courtney said...

Holy crap Farah!!! This is great news! I'm glad there is such a 'positive' reason behind the way you have been feeling.

SO excited for you. :)

My Reality said...

Wahoo!!! So excited by this news!

Leah said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

I have been reading your blog so some time now, again congratulations.

Ivonne said...

congrats!!!! I am so happy for you. this is awesome news.

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

Holy Sh*t!!! That's insane! So happy for you, sweetheart! YAY! :)

Kim said...

WOW! That's so incredible, congratulations!!

And good luck...

with two under two ;o).

Alex said...

Congratulations!!

Intrepidgirl said...

Wow! Fabulous! Another amazing journey! Were you trying?

Allison said...

congrats! enjoy every minute of it..you deserve it Farah!!

WISHING...HOPING...and PRAYING said...

omg! congratulations! i haven't commented on anyone in awhile b/c i have just been so busy, but this definitely deserved a big fat congrats. i hope it is good news all around. when i had carson, cooper was just barely 2. it is fun having them so close, but a ton of work as i am sure you can predict. i am thrilled for you and wish you a happy and healthy pregnancy. yay!!!!

Lollipop Goldstein said...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! That is an excited cry. Congratulations, sweetie :-)

Amanda said...

That is wonderful and exciting, Farah!! Congrats!

Don't get down on yourself with guilt...this gives others hope that it will happen for them too.

Caro said...

Congratulations!!!

K @ ourboxofrain said...

That's awesome news, Farah! Congrats!

I am so glad that the weird health issues were being caused by something GOOD!

lub said...

Congratulations! Looks like we're in this together again! I am 13 weeks along. Great news Farah. MT is gonna be a big brother!

Hopeful Terri said...

Contrats to you and your family. I wish you the best of luck. Hope for a healthy and happy pregnancy.

Jess said...

Sweetie, I am so happy for you! While you were saying you had all these lab work done and you were gaining weight, I thought to myself what if she is pregnant but seeing how long it took to have Mt, I ruled it out! I'm so happy for you...yay for baby #2! The best part of knowing late is now you only have 7 months to wait and your almost past your first trimester. Don't worry about others...we will all get our chance too. You just worry about your family and that precious baby you are carrying,

Cibele said...

OMG Farah. I am very happy for you and I appreciate your honesty. I think that number 2 will never happen on my heck of the woods. I am truly happy for you, how exciting , how exciting. My you have a wonderful pregnancy

Katie said...

OH MY GOD!!! I am calling you. Right. NOW.

Congratulations, Sweetheart!

Kim said...

WOW! Great news (the pregnancy and also that it's not some other mysterious ailment). I ended up with an unassisted pregnancy after many years of IF too, so I know how you feel. I really didn't want to be the person my friends and family told other IF couples about as proof that when you least expect it, or stop worrying about it...
But the reproductive system is nothing if not annoyingly fickle.

I hope the entire pregnancy is smooth sailing and can't wait to read all about it!

A New Beginning said...

WOW!! I was not expecting this post at all, but I am so excited for you all. Congratulations!

Delenn said...

Oh, Farah! I am so excited for you!!! Congratulations.

I know that 2 this close in age can be tough, especially the first few years.
My friend had this happen.

I
also know
how
tough it
is to know whether to tell--my friend had to tell me not to soon after we had just started having troubles with having our second one.

But I can tell you--this community is going to be celebrating with you. And it will be here during the tough first years.

I couldn't be happier for you!

Barb said...

Don't worry about me missy. :)

sara said...

Yay! Congrats! I couldn't think of anything that would make my world any better than to hear this news! I am grinning ear to ear and screaming with excitement!!!!!!!!!!!!

Polka Dot said...

Wow! I'm torn between saying "you poor thing" (2 under 2?!? Holy cripes!) and "omg congrats!!". Maybe a combo of both lol

AJ's mommy said...

We have already talked... but you already know I am beyond excited for you. I hope now with all these comments you see how much support you have :) So now just try to relax and sit back and enjoy this pregnancy dear... you deserve it!

Artblog said...

:) Good luck for the ultrasound love :)

Elizabeth said...

OMG, congratulations!!!! I have to admit that I had a sneaking suspicion! I thought "could it be? #2?.... Nah...." But OMG! I'm truly happy and excited for you and so glad. How are you feeling? Other than the physical part, I mean - is it nerve-wracking, or happy, or all of the above?

Jill, Mommy of Tanner and Josie, our Clomid baby. :o) said...

Thank you so much for letting me be part of your secret! I AM STILL OVER THE MOON FOR YOU!!!!!!

Photogrl said...

Holy cow! Woo-hoo!

Wow!

Congratulations, Farah! Nothing but joy for you here.

Yay!

Marci said...

Congratulations! What a blessing~

Nurse Lochia said...

Congratulations! That is great news! I am so excited for you guys!!

Kathy said...

OMG Farah! Congrats! Now we are pregnancy buddies again! I understand your mixed emotions, but am sooooooo happy for you! :) You, your husband, MT and your new baby are in my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS)))

Tobacco Brunette said...

WOW...that is so amazing. Congratulations, Farah!!

Wishing you an uneventful and enjoyable pregnancy.

Mel said...

Holy moly!!! CONGRATULATIONS! How awesome!!!! A drama free baby, I cannot believe it. How perfect. I love it!

noswimmers said...

Woah...congratulations!! So happy for you!!

Kristen said...

Holy crap! Imagine my surprise when I am reading the little L&F and BAM! My girl Farah is again with child! CONGRATS!!!!!!

But I totally understand your survivor's guilt. That's part of the reason I haven't blogged much about my thoughts on TTC #2. I'm just not sure how to go about it.

All my love to you! I am so excited to follow you on this journey. XOXO

Life in Eden said...

So great!

Leanne said...

OH wow! Where have I been? lol

Congratulations Hun!! This is exciting news!!!

Heather said...

I"m just catching up with blogs - CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Janna said...

OMG where have I been??? I am so happy for you!!!

tryingin2007 said...

HOLY CRAPOLA!!!! how did I miss this! it's funny. when you posted awhile ago that you weren't feeling well the pregnancy thought did cross my mind. wow!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

((BIG celebratory hug))

:)

(and I like the new layout. I'd lighten up the background green though. it's a bit too dark for the type.)

butterflyanla said...

I am excited for you. You struggled for so long to get MT, this baby is such a blessing. I am glad that you ended up with two miracles. You are a great person and a great friend. Congrats!

Rachel Inbar said...

How did I miss this post?!? Wow. What great news :-D

My girls are 1 year and 11 days apart and they are best friends (now 4 & 3). I can't even say it was difficult. By the time the younger one was born the older one was talking (though not yet walking) and everything went pretty smoothly. You are giving your son (and your family) the BEST PRESENT EVER!!

My_Herstory said...

OMG CONGRATS! That's awesome! We're starting our IUI trials right now for our second as well. I'm so happy for you!!! Wow, that's so awesome. I just ran out to the living room to tell david, he says congrats too!!!