This weekend I caught up reading some new blogs that have recently started commenting on mine. There are so many great, creative writers out there. It's almost a little intimidating for myself, since I am not such a profound writer. I am just real and honest and this is just therapy. It's not school where a teacher comes around and gets out a red pen to start horrifyingly riping my paper to shreds and by the time she gets done with it, its a Picasso's version of connect the dots - its just feelings turned to words to help me release all the pressure, so I do not do like the lil tea pot and tip over and pour out all over innocent bystanders.
I just finished reading Jaime's blog today and haven't been the same since. These are feelings I try desperately to put aside. Then I moved to TeamWinks. They have the same theme ... and I cant stop thinking about this. Despite all our (all IF-er's) attempts, we lose the newness, the joy (per say) and excitement of a new life and gain alot (of baggage, financial resources and other crappiness).
Just like the above bloggers, we have attempted parenthood and making many lifestyle changes in order to acheive this goal, and fall short for many months.
I have been on this organic/gluten free/no caffiene diet for quite some time now. (roughly 3 months) I have never been prone to yeast infections, but i "heard that yeast effects the reproductive system" and when I already fall on the wrong side of odds, I am willing to endure or give up what ever it takes to acheive paraenthood. It will only a temporary sacrifice. Saying that, I state for the record that my last yeast infection was aprox. 3 or 4 yrs ago. UNTIL LAST WEDNESDAY .. How can I go from posting how happy I am with my body to I want to set my woman parts ablaze and be done with them? Then I stubbled upon Town Criers' fantastic short and realized how I managed to get a yeast infection even when I am not eatting anything yeasty ... ................. Uterninus's Law ... this is was made for me today .. Thank you Thank you, boy did I need that. That is so great