Saturday, January 30, 2010

Juggling

Man, I miss blogging, It helped me remember, organized and kept me somewhat sane along with many other therapeutic qualities. I am sure I will regain control of my life at some point but right now, the time that I find available for blogging is trumped by the need to either: pick up toys, clean up the mess, take a shower (which could include cleaning up the mess), sleeping, washing laundry, feeling guilty about disciplining MT repetitively, enforcing Time outs, trying to keep everyone attended to and somewhat happy, and trying to keep up with my tivo. Here I'll start with a picture:
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This past month has flown by. MT got Rs.v and had to have breathing treatments every 4 hrs for a few days and then was put on antibiotics for a sinus infection. This was the second time in his life taking antibiotics. The first time (around 9 mons), He had night terrors, but the dr's office thought It was just a fluke, but after 3 doses this time, he developed night terrors again and I had to take him off of it and find something.

We are still trying to find a pattern for life that works for us. Many people have asked about jealousy and MT. I still do not think that there are many jealous tendencies from him. Don't get me wrong, that does not mean that he is a perfect angel and never attempts to throw toys at him or sit on him - It just, to me, is no different then he was before the baby arrived. MT hit the "terrible two's" somewhere around 14 months. Tantrums, OH the tantrums! He gets better and better with his tantrum performance every day. Emmy Quality! At almost 20 months (yes he is almost 20 months, WHAT!) He has the tantrums pretty much perfected. I have yet to find a way to discipline him that gets his attention best. I try, but he is just exploring hid rights and limitations. I just have to stay consistent and do my best. Which lately has not been my best. It has included alot of screaming and crying ..... From both of us. At 20 months, he understands ALOT. The problem with that, He still does not use words much. But BOY Can he Talk. He tries, he will "tell" you all kinds of things. He "tells" me plenty in sounds strung together to sound like sentences - and hopefully for my sake there are some words or cues that I understand so I can figure out what he is telling me. But this is where he/we gets frustrated alot. He wants me to understand/I want to understand but do not always understand him ..or it takes me longer to understand him that he wanted. I am contemplating speech therapy but may give it a few more months to see what he develops. His desire to communicate has exploded over the past month and I am working with him to see if I can help first. He also has an interest in using the potty. So we are working on this too. He is tall enough to reach counters, cabinets, shelves and if he is n ot tall wnough, He knows to climb on chairs and such to make him taller. He is SMART and Fast. The other day,I was feeding 2.0 and found MT pushing up a chair to the fridge to get his own ice and water from the outside door compartment. and even with his tantrums and days of outburst, he still has me wrapped around his finger. Man, I love how much life lessons he teaches me.

2.0 is doing well. He is doing great bfing. He still hates the paci but loves to suck, so we are still attempting to become acquainted with the paci. He still has a hard time sleeping unless being held/in a sling. He LOVES to be talked to. He has the biggest whole face toothless grin that makes my heart melt. He is generally a very happy baby. (unless in his carseat) He does sleep in blocks of 4 ish hours at night. So as long as MT is sleeping, I have been able to get a 4 hr chunk of sleep at times.

Both of mine come with very short fuses though. If they want something, they want it 5 mins ago! MT is almost done with teething and I could not be more excited. Teething, for us, has been pretty awful. He has 2 more 2yr molars to get, then he will be all done. I do not think it will be much longer waiting because those areas already have swollen gums.

Life with 2, is a balancing act. Some days start with both crying at the same time and other days everything just seems to be seamless and boosts my confidence for the times that are not so seamless. I try to keep things in perspective, keep great company and continue trying to find a groove that works best for us. Honestly, this is the hardest thing I have ever done in life. Somedays it's all fun and games and somedays it's worse than a trip to the dentist. But, I am determined to raise good, polite, wellrounded, enjoyable, fun loving boys and have the most fun we can have doing it. 99.9% of the time, I feel honored and blessed to have this opportunity, the other .1% takes over on the rough days, We just push through those days, get through bedtime and start with a clean slate the next day.

16 comments:

Mountain Girl said...

Your little boys are ADORABLE! I'm sure they are keeping you busy......

HereWeGoAJen said...

You are going a good job, Farah. I know it is tough. Hang in there, it will get easier.

Barb said...

Adorable! Good perspective sweets. You are my hero. Poor MT. :(

JJ said...

They are SO cute! I can imagine its been tough to find a balance--but I have no doubt you are doing an amazing job with ALL of it!

kimbosue said...

I know it's tough, but I'm sure they are so worth it all! Especially when the good outweighs the bad!

Photogrl said...

Look at how big both of them are getting!

Sounds like you're doing just what you need to do right now.

((HUGS))

Amanda said...

I love you dearly and have missed you!!!

I'm so sorry to hear about the RSV. I hope the doctors will listen to you about the antibiotics causing the night terrors.

I can't believe how quickly your boys are growing up! They are both such handsome little men. You must be so proud!!

I wish I lived closer so I could come help on those crazy days. I know all about those days! I couldn't imagine doing them with two different ages...wow.

My Reality said...

You are juggling well!

lub said...

Wow we are living the same life! Only mine are girls! Keep up the great work momma! Every day that we survive is a GREAT one! Kudos to you for doing all that you are. :)

AJ's mommy said...

They are adorable! good to hear from you!

Katie said...

Oy, this post scares me just a little!:)

Except for your attitude is SO amazing. You are so calm and positive, that just must make all of the difference.

Hugs to you as you contine to work through this.

Courtney said...

Love these pictures of your boys. They are both so happy and adorable! I am reading and taking some very good notes on what is to come in the months ahead...

Jill, Mommy of Tanner and Josie, our Clomid baby. :o) said...

O.M.G.!!! Could they look any more a like and could they be ANY cuter????

I miss your stories but you have a good reason to be slacking. :o)

sara said...

I love those photos of the two! They are just adorable! Ahh...the tantrums. Who would of thought that they started so early, huh? Brynn has her share daily as well. You are doing an amazing job and as a wise person told me two years ago...some days your only job is to breathe. Just breathe (I remember how much your sweet comment helped me!) Hugs..

tryingin2007 said...

man! I miss you! :(

love the pictures! what beautiful sons.

My_Herstory said...

Oh My goodness! you little guys are so adorable! Congrats on the birth of your second son! I havn't been around due to life, lol, but I'm gunna start catching up with your blog. Congrats again!